Hello, momma.
Total transparency; I've written and re-written this email too many times to count at this point because, sometimes, there just are no words.
So I will just keep this simple; it's been a really hard year for me.
In this chapter of my life, my main objective is encompassing simplicity and ease. Oddly enough, I've noticed the needs I have now are not so different from my early postpartum years. But this time I understand it at a much deeper level - and I am being forced to listen to myself rather than power through.
During the summer, right after Greg passed, I tried really hard to keep the kids entertained and, ultimately, distracted. All I wanted to do was sit in silence and grieve, but I forced myself to keep pushing. Then I got sick. Then I got better. I kept pushing. Then I got really sick. My body was screaming at me and I knew I needed to listen.
Honestly, I felt a little defeated at the time, angry and betrayed by my body. I had been doing as much as I could to stay healthy - somatic work, spiritual practices, holistic doctor visits, nervous system regulation. But it wasn't enough anymore. This was different. I realized, in this moment, my body simply needed me to set clear boundaries of ease and self care. It was simple, yet felt really impossible with everything going on.
So I took a backseat and became the observer of my experience. With this perspective, I felt such a profound respect for my body and power as a woman: the ability to be almost everything for everyone and hold unbelievable strength through it all, while also carrying an innate intuition that only the beautiful feminine human body can -- allowing for grace, understanding and deep knowing of what I truly needed in order to keep showing up for my people.
So I stopped. I surrendered. I listened. I asked for help.
I set up lots of play dates (when the kids get older they entertain each other with minimal adult supervision, it's wonderful). I started to connect with myself and be even more present in the moments - the great ones, the debilitating ones, and all the other ones. And thus began my real journey of grieving and healing.
Ultimately, I was so grateful to have started the process years before of gaining a deep understanding of my nervous system and connected body and finding all the tools to help guide me through one of the hardest times of my life. Where would I have been if I hadn't been doing the work prior to this?
So many people wait until things get really bad to start the deep healing work. Especially as women and mothers, we just keep pushing ourselves aside because there are so many people that need and depend on us. I'm telling you right now, your healing needs to start now. There is absolutely no excuse not to.
So where can you start? It's simple: in the in between moments.
The moments between the craziness. The extra long hug you can relish in with your kids, the conversation you actually get to finish with your partner, the bedtime routine you set aside for yourself. It's all available if you prioritize it and stay in the moment to connect with it.
Even an afternoon spent with some of your favorite moms can be a beautiful in between moment. That's why I organized Holiday Unwind for our Collective crew. Yoga, breathwork, a private chef...need I say more? Holiday Unwind is a half-day retreat where you get to reset your boundaries and let your body and soul lead. You, me and your fellow Motherhood Collective crew will restore, listen, and ground ourselves so we can all more clearly see what is truly important this holiday season.
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Find the in-between moments
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Selfishly, I also want to hold space with all of you again because I so very much miss all of your energies. So please gift yourself, and me, this day. You all know I'm here with any questions or concerns.
Oh and please spread the love and invite other momma friends that could benefit from this. If you and your friend buy a ticket before Dec 8 at midnight, you will be eligible for a surprise at the retreat! :)
Event address will be sent in your confirmation email after payment.
Love to you always,
Court
P.S. I want you all to know your energy, thoughts, prayers and gifts helped lift me during some of my darkest moments. From the deepest depths of my heart, I just want to say THANK YOU. You are amazing and I appreciate you.
